♥Monday, July 13, 2009
Daily Gossip:
I'm currently into doll photography!! They're like the most amazing thing ever! The doll, the photography! Everything is soo amazing.
It's really beautiful how perfect the dolls are!
Here's a treat!
Out Of Bounds:D
7/13/2009 10:00:00 PM
Daily Complain**
My Parents Don't Let Me Go Vegetarian!!!!
Hermpf!
Out Of Bounds:D
7/13/2009 04:47:00 PM
♥Thursday, July 09, 2009
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Sometimes, I do feel like it doesnt matter. Even if said that it matters, it just feels like it doesn't.
Example:
I went home late last time. So I text and said "Soo sleepy, shall go home sleep now."
So call came in "where are uu?"
"I went to A's house."
"With who?"
"My sister and her bf"
"Uu sure?"
"Yeah, why?"
"Uu didnt tell me uu were going out."
"......"
"Text me when uu get home."
"Kay"
So I got home and text him "Home already. Going to sleep now. Sorry for not telling you. I just thought I didnt wanna bother uu"
And reply was"Nah, I was just joking. Night."
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Soo uu may wonder why I feel like it doesnt matter. No matter whether I say or not. Whether I talk or not. It doesn't matter right?
So I decided, since it doesnt matter. I shan't say anything nomore.
If nobody asks, I wont tell. Savvy?
Yeah.
I thought I would be happy, but happiness is tiring.
But since I'm willing to give, I shall try my best.
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Out Of Bounds:D
7/09/2009 03:46:00 PM
♥Thursday, May 14, 2009
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I am soo broke. All my courses are happening in May. And I need to pay all the course fees in May. Sooo broke. And I don't dare to ask from my dad, because I want to take these courses myself. I dont think he'll allow. Since I'm cramming it with my studies. Now both my Sats and Suns are filled. I'm like super upset now. I am damn damn damn broke la. After I pay my course fees, I'll be left to survive the rest of the month on 12 bucks.
Brought back Guinea Pigs, and mum's ignoring me and nicole. And even he is making things hard for me. Why can't anybody understand? But then again, I was doing some self reflection, and I realized..
I always blame others for not understanding me just because Delia and Fai cann read me perfectly. I use them as a perfect comparision and compare everyone else to them. Than I blame the whole world for not understanding me. But all I do is shut up and expect people to read me like Delia and Fai. That's wrong right? How can I expect people to understand me when I never make an effort to talk bout myself?
But I don't wanna talk bout myself. I'm not the centre of the universe, why should I go around telling people bout me? I feel like a burden just telling people how I feel. I tend to take things a little hard. And I tend to harp on unhappy things. And when I try hard to be nice and friendly, some say I try too hard. Soo I shut off, then people say I give off a bad vibe.
Signns. Sometimes it's soo hard to be live. The whole world is just full of shit. Why are people even trying? Because we have soo many aspirations? Because we want to do soo many things? But the world is soo screwed up. Everybody is soo obessessed. You can't find a normal person whose genuinely nice inside.
What's wrong in finding peace in solitude? Am I that hard to understand? Why do people tell me I'm mysterious and hard to approach? Why do people judge? There're soo many questions I don't understand. I know this sounds pathetic, but if I were to die now, I actually don't mind. It's not that I'm emo and hate the world or anything. I have many things I want to do too. Soooo much fun I wanna have. But sometimes, I just feel soo tired, and would just want to sleep my days away. And should I just die suddenly, maybe I would regret it and have flashbacks, but I wouldn't mind. I think. I'll be fine by myself. I'll be okay.
Guys love to make a big deal out of everything. They're brains are only made to store computer games and porn, and it's hard to hammer stuff like "I like to go home myself" into their brains. And then when uu go out with friends, they say ur always looking for options. In their eyes, the girls are always looking for more options. Everyone just looks like sluts to them. And when uu tell them something, they're think ur comparing them to someone better and that uu may like that someone better than them. Guys say girls are hard to understand, but as a matter of fact, it's just because their brains have nothing. All that is inside are MCP shit.
Okay fine, I apologize, maybe that was a bit harsh. Since I'm only ranting at one person. But seriously la. I like being independent. Guys always think of girls as the fairer gender, and that we are incapable of being independent the moment they are close to becoming ur guy, or are already ur guy. Signns.
Maybe I have too much stuff that I keep inside. Time to let go of all the secondary school shit. Soo what if I was bullied? Soo what if everyone hated me? Alot of people go through stuff like this. I'm not the only one. And besides, I dare say that I'm doing a lot better than many of those bullies now. I may not be the best, but at least I have my family and I'm studying hard for my degree. I have people who care for me. And I am happy. Soo really, I should let go. Really, Kendy, time to let go.
It's time you moved on.
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Out Of Bounds:D
5/14/2009 07:13:00 PM
♥Monday, January 19, 2009
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Today is 7th months with Unkie....
And I didn't see him the whole day.
Hmm.
He's busy with FYP.
Hmm.
I guess, it's just like that huh.
But I do get like bored and lonely.
And I'm still irritated at how dense he still is.
I'm yearning to be free again.
I know I shouldn't think this.
But the more we go, the more I think...
We're not compatible?
I dono.
Signns.
I'm seriously tired of relationships.
But I do still love him.
I'm just tired.
And when I feel tired.
I usually just take the easy way out.
That is in this case.
A break up.
Hmm.
But...
Hmm.
I guess not now.
St. James is better than Zouk.
Like seriously.
The music is way better.
I cut my hair.
Like real short.
Hmm.
Like short short.
Hmm.
And it's hard to match clothes with it.
I dono if I cann still wear skirts.
Hmm.
Arg!Grr!Why did uu call?Stop pushing me soo hard already.-----
Out Of Bounds:D
1/19/2009 11:01:00 PM
♥Saturday, December 20, 2008
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I think I'm sick lor.
Tummy feeling like it's burning.
Headache.
I feel like puking.
I keep feeling cold and hot.
Grr.
Soo irritating.
Ryan's training today almost killed me.
I almost vomitted my breakfast out.
Around and around the MpH we went.
Crazy lor.
100 push ups again.
No strength after that.
Woke up in the morning with an aching knee.
Couldn't go down stairs without it hurting.
Soo lame.
I think maybe it's because I don't drink milk?
And my bones are all creaking and getting old.
Anyway, school's gonna start soon.
And everything's readlly hectic.
I'm now in group B3.
Seperated from Delia.
Signns.
And gonna miss 3 of Ryan's training at one shot.
Sucks.
Big time.
Went clubbing wednesday.
With Charlotte and Nic and Bay.
Bay got drunk and left us.
As always.
Anc we girls managed to get some guys to treat us to drinks.
Haahaa.
Drank soo much.
But didn't get drunk.
Cause I took my time drinking it.
Hmm.
It was Mambo and ladies night.
And it was fun.
But I got bored pretty fast.
Cause my attention span is like...
Short.
Hmm.
Half a year with Uncle just past, Friday.
And I think he forgot bout it.
Cause he's busy for NRA...
I'm telling myself that it's okay.
But..
Hmm..
Aiya..
I think I just cannot be bothered to be angry la.
Waste my time.
Whatever.
Really don't feel well.
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Out Of Bounds:D
12/20/2008 10:35:00 PM
♥Friday, October 31, 2008
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My blog is rotting.
I'm lazy.
And I have a HUGE PIMPLE.
And I HATE IT.
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Out Of Bounds:D
10/31/2008 12:23:00 AM
♥Wednesday, October 08, 2008
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My right shoulder muscle hurts.
Damn.
It always hurts when I sit down for to long.
When I relax and slouch.
My back must be forbidding me from slouching.
Hmm.
Just complained to Delia,
And she says slouching hurts the lower back
Not the shoulder.
Haahaa.
Now I feel silly.
Haahaa
Shall go and concentrate on the stupid editing.
Hurts.
And I miss Uncle.
He's always dancing
And I'm always doing assignments.
Aww.
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Out Of Bounds:D
10/08/2008 10:32:00 PM
